There is so much going on in my life lately. I have been suffering alone because well at this point I see no reason to share. Nothing good will come of it. Everyone needs to deal in their own time. I may never be able to deal with this but I have high hopes for myself that I will one day be able to put it all behind me and be stronger then ever before. I guess what I am trying to say I have good days and bad and sometimes struggling to be strong every day takes a physical and mental toll. I run out of strength reserve and need to crash, cry, sob and regroup every once in a while.
These were taken on a good day.
I am amazed that I have these days knowing what I am going through but happy to know this is the face my kids see 90% of the time. I save my crying for after they are sleeping. No reason to cause them any pain. Protect! Protect! Protect! This is what parents do.
I hope you are all smiling today!