Saturday, November 26, 2005

Amatuer Movie Review - War of the Worlds

Last night I watched War of the Worlds starring Tom Cruise and Dakota Fanning with my husband. The movie had me on the edge of my seat after the first 10 minutes and I thought that H.G. Wells would have been really proud until the last 10 minutes. It was like being on a rollercoaster; you are heading into the last, biggest loop, your breath is caught in your throat as you anticipate the stomach churning finale that got you on the ride in the first place but then the lights go dark and you come to a slow rolling stop! That's it?! Because the movie was so good up until that point I can almost forgive the ending.

Tom Cruise is getting long in the tooth and looks like Mr. Big from Sex and the City. Dakota Fanning who is a wonderful little actress in the making (I am Sam and Man on Fire), is reduced to screaming every other second and Tim Robbins is the creepy fellow who invites them into his basement to hide. The intense moments and frantic escapes left me holding my breath. The special effects and the scary alien machines were frightening but I wish the ending had more punch!

All in all I would watch it again

Wednesday, November 23, 2005

Please Vote for My Daughter

I just received an email from telling me that my daughter has been selected to participate in their baby photo contest. If you have the chance please vote for Goddess. She is in the babies 0-12 section.

People can vote once daily from the same computer but hey if you have access to another computer....

I am so thrilled that she was selected and although I don't think she will win the month of November that would be fun too.

Thank you for your support

Tuesday, November 22, 2005

What I am Thankful For

As Thanksgiving approaches I find myself thinking about the many things I am thankful for.

A few years ago I had a gratitude journal (Oprah idea) and would write 5 things a day I am grateful for. Sometimes it would be as simple as being grateful for a really great cup of coffee and other times it was being thankful for being above ground. Whatever it was, I love reading where I was then. I need to get back to basics; for my sanity! I think the gratitude journal would be a wonderful way of dealing some of the stress I feel on a daily basis as of late. So here it I am grateful for:

  • My son giving me a million unsolicited, very loud kisses today
  • My daughter finding my stupid, weird, spastic dance entertaining as I struggled to keep her happy while I made dinner.
  • My husband coming home safely; the weather was hideous tonight.
  • The pumpkin pie bars I made tonight for the first time coming out beautiful for my Mom and Tot brunch tomorrow.
  • My dear friend Teresa for all she has done for me lately. You are a true friend with a big heart and I love you!

Monday, November 21, 2005

Maria Needs

I got this idea from Belinda's blog. You type your name into Google followed by the word "needs." See what comes up. Mine is so true!!!

Maria Needs
Needs help
Constant care
To learn to let go
Engaged during non-sleep hours
To find something to sell, give away, throw out or burn
Your help
Go careful
An eating plan
To walk, just walk

End of my Rope

I am a women at the end! I am hanging on by a knot I tied into my thread and the threads are fraying. I think sometimes I am being selfish and although I try daily to be grateful for everything I have, there are times when I think I am losing my mind.

The 2 year old and the 7 month old banshee girl are challenging. The "girl" has a scream in a category all its own. She can shatter glass and if she is not being held she lets it all out. How can I hold her 24 hours a day when I also have a 2 year old that needs attention too? He is basically a really good kid but has 2 year old tantrums a few times a day and comes with all the average 2 year old challenges. You know what I mean, like touching things when he shouldn't, climbing things that can kill him, not listening, selective hearing, making messes, wanting things he can't have, hitting things, crying at impromptu times, the regular kid thing.

I think it is just too many days of the same thing (juggling two babies under 2 1/2), no time to recharge my batteries, waking 3 times a night to feed the baby, waking before the birds, and feeling trapped and alone most of the time.

Yesterday the husband watched football all day which I don't begrudge him, but hello a little help when I am losing it would be helpful. I never get to CHECK OUT yet he can lie on the couch and watch the games without a bit of guilt. I need to learn how to do that. Yesterday I took the kids out for a bit and then was pretty much trapped with the two of them in the bedroom while he lied on the couch.

I think it is time for some ME time! I need to check out for a while every day. He wanted to know what was wrong with me yesterday but I didn't think it would come out right so I told him we would talk later. Mostly because my son was there but also because I didn't want him to feel attacked. I wish he would once in a while think about editing himself before talking to me. After 14 years he still has no idea how to talk to me. He doesn't take my sensitivity into consideration so I usually end up crying (I am a big crier).

Ummm...ok that felt like a weight off my chest. Sometimes just getting it out is all you need but I do think we need to talk about this in detail. I feel unsupported and sometimes like a single parent. Ok it looks like a good cry is in order. Later!

Sunday, November 13, 2005

Amateur Movie Review - House of Wax

Last night my husband and I watched the 2005 remake of House of Wax. I don't know what makes a movie good to professional critics but for me; I just want something that keeps me interested and makes me feel like I am not wasting precious hours of my life.

House of Wax although not well acted, nor did it have a profound, smart storyline. It is still worth a gander.There's the sexy brooding brother, the cute sensitive boyfriend, the one black guy (like most horror movies), the dopey friend who has a crush on the main chick who is the innocent ingénue type and Paris Hilton.

Basically I'll sum it up for you: Sibling rivalry, car trouble, make-outs, road kill, creepy dude, Siamese twins, blood, wax, and fire. What more can you ask for in a horror movie?

Friday, November 11, 2005

Have you???

Copied from Bekkah's Blog and I am tagging Aussie to show her what a tag is. Mama I'm tagging you too honey.

You're supposed to BOLD the ones you've done:

smoked a cigarette - NEVER

crashed a friend's car

stolen a car

been in love - Thankfully yes and still am

been dumped - Yeah by some prick named Dave and then some shmuck named Mike who I was dumb enough to go back to (insert me hitting myself upside the head)

shoplifted - Yes I was 9 and it was an Archie comic book. I actually ran it back the same night an apologized because I was so sure that they knew and would tell my parents.

been fired - Two times and proud of it

been in a fist fights

snuck out of your parent's house - No but does sneaking out of an apartment I shared with a boyfriend count?

had feelings for someone who didn't have them back - God yes..his name: George Clooney. No really of course!

gone on a blind date - Yes and it was a mistake

lied to a friend - I am sure that somewhere along the line when I was younger this must have happened, but I honestly can't recall.

skipped school - Yeah a lot more than once

seen someone die

had a crush on one of your internet friends

been to Canada

been to Mexico

been on a plane - Yes two times to Florida, once to California and then to St. Lucia for my honeymoon which was 8 years ago this month (my last vacation!!!).

purposely set a part of yourself on fire - God no! Why????!!!!

eaten sushi - Love sushi. It's been so long. Since I am nursing I am afraid to but when I am done that is the first meal I want. Hopefully Bek and Ohio will show me how to make it

been jet-skiing

met someone in person from the internet- No unfortunately not but I would love to meet my Aussie chick, we have been speaking for 4 or 5 years now.

been moshing at a concert

taken pain killers - Yes after my babies were delivered and I wish I still had some of those beautiful little pills ahhhhh

loved and missed someone - come on now, of course

made a snow angel - Yes...and a naked one too brrr

had a tea party - Love my tea, can't wait to buy my daughter her first little china tea set

flown a kite

built a sand castle - It had been years before this summer but we got my son a sand table for his birthday, so this year I made tons for him to demolish much to my dismay

gone puddle jumping - Yeah I am a big dopey kid. Can't wait to take my son on his first outing.

jumped in a pile of leaves - Yes. My dad loved taking pictures of my sister's and I in the leaves and this year I did it with my son. So much fun.

gone sledding - Oh my God...I love sledding but it has been years. Maybe next year with my son

cheated while playing a game - Ummm...I don't think so.

been lonely - Yes. One of my least favorite Christmas memories.

Like fallen asleep at work or school - Not actually at work but at lunch in my car

used a fake id - Once and I was nervous the whole night

watched a sunset - Every God damn morning man, my kids suck!!

felt an earthquake - Thank God no!

touched a snake - Yes I used to have two

slept beneath the stars - Yes, in Brownies or Girl Scouts

been robbed

been misunderstood - Who hasn't?

petted a reindeer/goat - Yes to both

won a contest - I won a Pound Puppy back in the 80's and then a Halloween costume contest at work

run a red light/stop sign - Yes, my husband (friend at the time) asked me to come pick him up at this locale that I had never been to. I just wanted to get him and get home (it was like 2:00 am.) and I was rushing. Not knowing the area and rushing around I ran a stop sign and just missed hitting a car. I saw them in my rear view mirror, well their red break lights anyway. They sat for a long time probably getting over their shock or thanking the Lord.

been suspended from school

been in a car accident - Thankfully just two small little fender bender

eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night

had deja vu - All the time

danced in the moonlight - Yes, I do not care to elaborate

liked the way you looked at least at one point in time - Yes but not at the time, only when I look back at pictures. Hopefully in the future I'll like what I see now

witnessed a crime

been obsessed with post-it notes

squished barefoot through the mud

been lost - Yeah but there was this cute Dr. named Jack and this sexy bad boy named Sawyer..oh damn never mind!

been on the opposite side of the country

swam in the ocean

cried yourself to sleep

played cops and robbers

recently colored with crayons

sung karaoke - **cough** cough** ahhhh Yup good times! Me and my bud T used to start karaoke Friday after work because everyone else was too pussy to go up until they had a few..

paid for a meal with only coins

done something you told yourself you wouldn't

made prank phone calls

laughed until some kinda beverage came out of your nose

caught a snow flake on your tongue

written a letter to Santa Claus

been kissed under the mistletoe by your boy/girlfriend

blown bubbles

made a bonfire on the beach

laughed so hard you pee your pants - Laughed to almost pee'ing but not quite. Thank God for strong kegals.

cheated on a test

been kissed by someone you didn't like - too many times

gone skinny dipping in a pool

Thursday, November 03, 2005

Through a Child's Eyes

Through a Child's Eyes

A Mother's Day Special Poem

"When I look at a patch of dandelions, I see a bunch of weeds that are going to take over my yard. My kids see flowers for Mom and blowing white fluff you can wish on. When I look at an old drunk and he smiles at me, I see a smelly, dirty person who probably wants money and I look away. My kids see someone smiling at them and they smile back. When I hear music I love, I know I can't carry a tune and don't have much rhythm so I sit self-consciously and listen. My kids feel the beat and move to it. They sing out the words. If they don't know them, they make up their own. When I feel wind on my face, I brace myself against it. I feel it messing up my hair and pulling me back when I walk. My kids close their eyes, spread their arms and fly with it, until they fall to the ground laughing. When I pray, I say thee and thou and grant me this, give me that. My kids say, "Hi God! Thanks for my toys and my friends. Please keep the bad dreams away tonight. Sorry, I don't want to go to Heaven yet. I would miss my Mommy and Daddy." When I see a mud puddle I step around it. I see muddy shoes and dirty carpets. My kids sit in it. They see dams to build, rivers to cross and worms to play with. I wonder if we are given kids to teach or to learn from? Enjoy the little things in life, for one day you may look back and realize they were the big things. I wish you BIG MUD PUDDLES and SUNNY YELLOW DANDELIONS."(author unknown)